i think that guys are really despo freaks. as in... i hear so many stories rite... after the break up all its the guy hu is still pining after the girl and stuff. andlike even in chasing and stuff... i dunno man. i could name a very good example who else but seriously. some guys need to get a grip lah. wads the pt of throwing urself at a girl and trying so hard?? if its not meant to be its not meant to be lah... and if u think this is directed towards you its not cos like im just saying in general lah... and like i dunno. guys are wierd lah. they pretend to be so cool and all but once they like some girl den they go all crazy and stuff... i mean got girls liddat too but i see more guys doing tt actually. more often i hear abt guys hu like thier gf's more than thier gf's like them and when they break they are the ones hu like grovel like pathetic dogs. i mean cant u see it just makes her despise you even more. if u just act like a man and take it with dignity instead of being like so desperate den she will respect you even if she doesnt love you. i think guys are wierd lah haha

anyway i was watching swimming last night and oh mannnnn they rock lah haha... wht i wouldnt give to be able to swim like dat lah.. and a china woman won! wow haha... i was talking to timmy wong es feli and andre last night and den when all the rest left me and tim were singing les mis haha... rocks lah i love it ok. its like im totally addicted to it k haha... i told tim the story and he said it was so romantic he want to cry haha! lame.timmy is a ultra romantic i think. his proposal haha!!! ok nvm. he is also gay.

i was so sleepy in sch today ok... and fell asleep when studying chem just now haha... oh no my sleeping habits ae seriously bad. i decided to sleep earlier tonight!! must lor. else im a zombie : haihz. i studied with dinesh today haha... was not bad! got to talk to him abit oso :) hes a really nice guy! haha. and i guess im like qt amazed at how like he is able to fit in everywhere. like hes still close to his last yr classmates but oso clsoe to his this yr ones and den he got his vs gang and the indian dudes haha... hes just a really nice fella lah :) and im so glad tt his grades are really improving this yr :)

well i dunno feel abit confused. din noe tt so many pple are like unhappy in church? as in with the church. i dunno i really like it haha... tho of cos i know its not just the church and all but i just really have found a grp where i belong. like we can be open and just have so much fun tgt :) i thot tt most other grps are like dat too... i mean even tho there are pple ion the fringes like jolin hu dun really come very often and others we are not say very close to like maybe theo and ina but yet i dunno i just feel like on the whole we are all qt united and we try to include everyone?? haha... dunno. its qt sadenning to hear pple criticize the church and stuff i mean, if u really dun like it so much maybe it something to do with yourself? but i guess there is no perfect church so its inevitable tt there are pple hu are not happy with it lah... just tt i am shocked cos its like pple i nv really thought would feel this way... like pple hu are really involved and stuff. hmm dunno lah not just one person summore. i was trying to explain to pei lee abt why there are so many divisions in the christian body itself... like all the denominations and stuff... and its really true lor. a church is man made thing and tho i know that God is the one who made the real church but nowadays its like... what is a real church?like why do churches argue and disagree... arent we all children of God... i think its like. the rules and stuff are man made but the heart is not? i dunno lah. i just think that i am really comfortable with church and i guess its largely in part due to shalom eats healthy haha. we rock :)